I think as women we want to analyze and think everything within an inch of its life. I started my day yesterday with the intent to 'talk' with DH (dear husband) when he got home about him not living up to our agreement and communicating what he wanted/liked to me. He was gone for the day and I had a rare 10 hours with nothing that needed doing.
I spent most of it touring some of my new favorite blogs and finding more to enjoy. I even tried my hand at writing some erotica (a lot harder than writing fiction with some steamy parts). I enjoyed some time in the FetChat rooms and met some wonderful people. Basically I spent the whole day reading or writing about BDSM.
By the time for DH to be home rolled around I was so worked up that I almost orgasmed at the sound of the front door. But still a part of my mind was ready for disappointment knowing he had spent a long day out and about while I had been relaxing. He grabbed and kissed me the minute we were within reach of one another and it shut my brain down.
What followed was a wonderful and fun night of loving. I didn't ask or talk, I just enjoyed what we had. It is a hard balance to find between comunication and patience. I know I forget sometimes that this is not just about me. If I am truely submissive I need to think about his needs as much as if not more than my own. Sometimes I just need to let life happen and not think so much.
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